Monday, April 23, 2007

Feelin' Gloomy

It's a warm and sunny spring day today, after countless cold, overcast, or downright rainy ones.

I'm in a funk, though, because I lost my temper with Julian this morning. He was unwilling to get ready for school, and gentle coaxing and encouragement proved ineffective. I had to raise my voice, use intimidation tactics, so he would get dressed, but even that wasn't enough to get him to eat his breakfast.

It was all too much, and I hated to drop him off at school before tensions had eased, and now I know I'll be carrying around this lump of remorse all day long. He was just groggy, and not ready to face Monday morning. I know how that is.

With rue my heart is laden.

    Highlights from Today's Playlist of Life

  • W.A Mozart: Sonata in D, K. 311, 2. Andantino con espressione─Mitsuko Uchida, piano─Mozart: Complete Piano Sonatas
  • Don’t Cry Baby─Bessie Smith─Bessie Smith: Chattanooga Gal - Disc 4 (Me And My Gin)
  • W.A. Mozart: Clarinet Concerto in A Major, K.622─English Chamber Orchestra; Richard Stoltzman, clarinet and conductor
  • Dogsong 2─The Be Good Tanyas─Chinatown
  • Igor Stravinsky: Three Pieces for Clarinet─Richard Stoltzman, clarinet─Tashi Plays Stravinsky
  • Tarif "Allah! Muhammad, The Four Friends, Hajji Khwaja Qutb Farid!"─Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan─Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan: En Concert à Paris
  • John Dowland: In Darkness Dwell─Sting; Edin Karamazov, lute─John Dowland: The Journey & the Labyrinth
  • O Leaozinho─Caetano Veloso─Beleza Tropical: Brazil Classics 1
  • Lady Sings the Blues─Billie Holiday─Billie Holiday: The Ultimate Collection


O'Donovan said...

Oh, Puzz. I suspect he'll be over it long before you are.

Miss you! When are you coming back?

Puzzled said...

Thank you. I hope you're right, but he's a sensitive boy, apt to brood, just like his dad.

We'll both get over it soon enough, of course.

As for coming back to TT, sigh... I don't think I can do that for a while. I miss all of you, too, but I am really appreciating the break, as hard as it is. It is a wrenching experience, to be sure, but I think it's the right thing for me to do at this time.

I have a dozen projects that will never get off the ground if I keep checking my Message Center every five minutes.

I'm enjoying the fact that I now have a lot more time to read blogs like yours, though!

Take care, my friend, and stay away from that tattoo needle!

Mary Elizabeth Williams said...

We miss you in TT, sir!

I also really do believe that if you don't have the conflict sometimes, you're not doing kids a favor. (God knows repressing everything doesn't seem to work out great) I try to remember that having everybody in the family see that we can argue and still love each other, still make up and get through it, ultimately will help the kids feel more secure, not less. Without some tension, how can they learn resolution?